A new adventure…

First day of a new class and I am feeling insecure. So far everyone in the room is a MHA (Master’s of Hospital Administration) major. They are familiar with each other and start conversation by reviewing what they went through during their spring courses together. They all seem so experienced. A little beat up by the arduous work of master’s level classes but confident in their experiences. They all know each other! I am sitting here in the back feeling uncomfortable, insecure, and nervous. Will I be able to keep up with what they are talking about? Will I even understand? How much background work am I going to have to do in order to ease into the conversations as if I know what I am talking about? All this pressure is self imposed by the way. These people have no idea who I am and what my capabilities are. My fear is faking the funk as if I know what is going on, then being exposed as a fraud. Because let’s face it, I don’t know what I am doing but I can’t let them know that.